I
understand what you're going through, in terms of learning; getting
frustrated when things get difficult or the learning gets stuck
on a threshold; and when you get angry about getting frustrated
or angry. It was an experience that I repeated time and time again
in my instrument and ATP courses.
I discovered
that when I started becoming frustrated, I was -- in reality --
approaching a threshold which I merely needed to recognize (for
what it REALLY was) and crash through. Instead, I became fixated
on my frustration and further impeded my own learning.
Learning is
a process. You can't expect to sit down with a book on nuclear physics
and expect to absorb all that you read. You can't expect that you'll
understand or master everything at first glance.
Learning is
a process whereby you become familiar with various elements, or,
elemental building blocks upon which you add the higher structure
in subsequent lessons. Some of us get stuck in the stage of re-arranging
the foundation blocks for time eternal until we realize that it
isn't necessary to reach an ideal level of perfection before adding
to a solid foundation.
What I'm attempting
to communicate is that perfection is a result of experience -- the
roof, as it were, which we add only when the weight-bearing walls
of learning and practice are in solid combination and harmony. The
roof of perfection helps us weather all that circumstance and our
own foolish choices may throw at us.
Perfection
isn't going to happen at this stage of the game for you. Not because
you can't be perfect, but because it happens when you're ready for
it. THAT takes experience. So getting frustrated only hampers your
learning by eroding the confidence which helps you to crash through
the barriers.
Thus,
when you find that you're getting frustrated, recognize it as a
signpost for "THRESHOLD COMING" and know that you're about
to make a breakthrough.
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